Feelings of Defeat....

Whew.....can I say that again? Whew!!!! Today has been one of those days where one could doubt  God and the plan that He has for you. We serve an awesome God despite how we can allow ourselves to feel. We have to remember that He is just a call away. No matter how much we are in the word, the human side of us has a tendency to take control if you allow it to.

Maybe a good cry perhaps??? I would say YES to that. Sometimes that's what it takes to move on. Clearing your thoughts as well as your mind can put you in a good place. I often feel like after I am done wondering and thinking so hard, why didn't I trust Him enough to give him all my cares by praying and then releasing all my "stuff?"

Hmmmmm.....I really can't answer that, but the one thing I do know is that carrying your own burdens can cause great grief in your life. Grief that isn't necessary for one to have. My Heavenly Father takes pleasure in difficult situations and handling them for us. It's so simple, but instead we make it complicated. Sometimes I amaze myself. Not to mention that when you are about to do something so wonderful, Satan beefs up his attack.

It is my desire to have the "Joy of the Lord" regardless. Even in the midst of tears and heartache, having  joy should be a daily goal if you will. Remember, HE delights in giving us the desires of our hearts. One of the gifts HE gave me was my husband. I decided to talk to him about some things that were really bothering me and this is what he told me: "Babe, you have to do everything you do as if you were doing it for the Lord. Things are going to get better and the ministry that you desire will manifest." All I could do was cry because here I'm thinking he's going to side with me and tell me what I wanted to hear. Ohhhhh baby, that was nowhere near what I thought he would say, but instead, it was what I needed to hear. I am so thankful that the Lord saw fit to allow this man to find ME!!!! He knew this is what I needed to hear on a day such as today.

The more I sat and prayed on this evening, the more my spirit settled down. Where I am not totally settled with and what how things are in certain situations, I am waiting for God to show up in my life. He will never leave or forsake me, so I have to trust him in all that I do.

I am His beloved and HE loves me. Lord, I trust you and thank you for making my path clear.

XOXOXOxoxox
Kiwanya

Doing what you love to do......

This has been on my mind for I would say over the past couple of years....."Doing what you love to do." There is nothing more aggravating than having to do something because "YOU HAVE TOO." But what one has to do is "DO IT" until it's your time. Lord help me.....we often cry out, but you know that it's all in HIS timing. SO, with that you choose to do what you gotta do until what you want to do manifested in the natural. Don't complain, keep a smile on my face and keep your best kept little secret to yourself or to those that are closes to you...

Have you ever been in that situation? Many people are or have been. The more I pray and read HIS word, I realize that there are seasons in our lives and we have to "wade the water" so to speak. If we can't be content where we are while we work diligently on what our hearts desire is, we won't be able to move forward.  It can be so difficult at times. You see others getting praise for what they do and you often question yourself....and then the anticipation of moving forward grows more intensely than ever. If you ever feel like you don't fit in, it's probably not because you don't, but because you are in the wrong place.

Praying and seeking the Lord should take precedence over everything if you are struggling with where you are. This is what I have been doing. Jeremiah 29:11 reads... "For I know the plans I have for you  declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." This is one of my all time favorite scriptures and as long as I know this I can move forward. It doesn't pay to complain, have a bad attitude, be disgruntled, or the like....trust me, it doesn't help matters at all. Pray hard and ask HIM to help you make it through each and everyday. This is why you should give your day over to HIM first thing in the morning.

Doing what you want to or to put it more plainly, doing what God wants you to do may seem like it's so way out there, but know it's not. It takes time to get everything you have in the works "worked out." Be patient and TRUST God for everything. He's working everything out for your good.

Smooches,
Kiwanya